He is Always Enough

In January 2008, I had an MRI done by David Grant Medical Center at Travis Air Force Base. I was diagnosed with a spinal birth defect called "spinal stenosis." I wound up losing my job and then couldn't work. I did work from home, but now that income has left the state? The last job I had outside of the home, was in September 2007 through January 2008 when I was laid off. 

The pain I have been in since August 2007, seemed to subside with the proper medication, but now things have gotten much worse. I was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes, which I have under control but will need to test my glucose levels forever now, and then in June of 2014, I was diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis, which is the most painful thing I've ever had to endure.  

My new RA is having a difficult time treating me because I keep spiking fevers and showing high white blood cell counts. She's afraid if she puts me on methotrexate to try to put me in remission from the PA, that it could cause a severe infection and land me in the hospital. The last three times I was in a hospital, (2 live births and 1 surgery), I nearly died of staph infection. Apparently, I'm highly susceptible to staph which is where most people get it, in the hospital.

So, to make a long story short, I have two different auto-immune disorders that are ravaging my earthly tent. I've been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia twice, but don't have too many of the side effects that go along with it? I did read a medical journal that said that spinal stenosis is the #1 cause of fibromyalgia so I guess it's possible that I just got lucky?

Even though I'm suffering on a daily basis, through some really fiery trials, I know that in these trials, God is showing me His strength! He lends it to me every day for, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! (Philippians 4:13).

So I will continue to offer Him my praise! I will lift my hands to the One who "can do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we ask or think." Ephesians 3:20). 

Just as Paul did, I have asked God to take these trials from me, and to heal me completely. When Paul asked a third time for the thorn in his side to be removed, "God said, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." (2 Corinthians 12:9).

I ask Him every day to help me, for "apart from Him, I can do nothing." I totally trust Him. As Job said, in his agony and misery, "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him." Job 13:15). What Job sufferred? He gained everything he lost double fold! Because he trusted God!

I trust Him too!